Previous dark secrets

In light of nat's exceptionally cute advertisement of herself on her brother's blog, more like a primary school touchdown-worthy effort, (yes nat, stop whining), i shall hereby reveal some quote-worthy statements of my best mates from years back. Wonders of email questionnaires.

28th jan 2003

deb chen, on being asked,

Cat shit or Dog shit?: haha...roy's one..=) (yes, all we young megalifers note this implicit detail)

Barfing on your date or your date barfing on you? wad's barfing?haha....sounds like barking=) (on why she is my best friend, please re-read answer)

Who's your best friend(s): dunnoe why char nv say it's mi but well my best fren is char egg egg (and it was always mutual hahahaha)

next up, (sounds like im parading my besties) nick yeo, on juicy details such as,

16 Nov 2002

What would you do to impress the girl/guy that you like? dun have to. hehe. bhb. ;)

Favourite smells? sweet, refreshing smells. ermm..-thinkz- can't define sia. i'll let u know. =) (note 'z' and 'sia')

actually i was scrolling down his answers. they're all too legitimate haha. which is a gd thing, considering he was just sec2 then. haha. but all the "heeheez~" and "wahahaz~" drove me to peals of laughter and shudders. haha.

super funny. how we look back, we all change. for the better. some of our closer frens strayed away from God too. scanned through my earliest emails, mostly from the people i worked with at church whilst being a cell ldr. the email addresses that were sent to by ps Joyce. Those who served, some no longer serving and going down the other way. it's a harsh world, can we do anything about it?

btw.

i shall randomly say "Happy Birthday" to Charles You for all the big brother he's been to me. although i know you're not gonna read this and you probably think i forgot. plus the fact that i dont even meet up or communicate with you anymore, you know that you mean alot to me cos we've all grown up together. take care bro. :)

i miss!

was just browsing through blogs, prior to doing prac reports, i must admit;) and i realised that i miss a whole lot of people.

randomly talking to people on msn..my sc gang, the hc people, the church frens, the taylors schoolmates, the ocfers, the people who dont even fit into any of those categories. haha:) shall make some deliberate effort in keeping in touch now!! yay:)

getting accquainted to more people in monash i guess..talked to my bio prac partner for a bout half an hour after prac finished early..he happens to be some aethist who hates everyone and everything in life. how encouraging is that, possibly in a warped way. oh well..im one of the 2pp in school who actually doesnt "piss" him off so that's cool.

went for cell steamboat dinner at my leader's place yest nite..it was not a bad nite of bonding=) just talking..din really talk much during dinner, obviously for chewing reasons and glaring at those who steal the stuff i flick in haha. just listening to what they had to say. mainly talked about people from the different countries represented, education system and what not.

i guess when you arent highly accquainted with people, it's good to step back and analyse where they're coming from, and which level of thinker they are. you must now thinkthat im some deep analyst who scruntinises heaps, but no haha. i had this best fren of mine who's the opp of me. when i look like im seriously thinking, im actually not. so vice versa for him. hmm scary issues. haha. :)

anw!! :) i recently made mango pudding for church dinner, my housemates and other people..most have come to the concensus (sp*) that it is nice! so yay! :) thanks mummy for the receipe (hush hush) just received an sms just fr funny ben, "am eating your fantastic pudding now!better than sharks fin restaurant!...(edit) wasnt enjoying the day till i ate this!" haha seriously..kudos to mummy and a certain high profiled hotel in sg not-to-be-named:)

just finished reading john grisham's The Partner in a couple of hours! ok 2 Christies and 1 more Grisham to go:) love it.

people

was just reading hy's blog, about msn nicks. it's very true. some people just want attention, some merely want specific attention, and others, just a listening ear or two.

In my personal opinion, humans have always been in the era of pain and suffering. We have always been pathetic hearts longing to love and be loved. After all that one has accomplished in one's life- career, family, ministry-wise, the end of the race is love, is it not? On the deathbed, at the funeral, parting ways.

Why are so many people in this world hurting? Why are there people who still harbour the negatives of the past in their hearts?

Perhaps this building up of walls is due to unforgiveness. Think about it. The hurt harboured, the anger stirred, the once-bitten-twice-shy theory hence the insecurity, leading up to the carefully manufactured pride.

It's easy to say, forgive them for God forgave you. It is but a good reminder, but how many can say, yes, I truly do forgive them? To trust that you wont be on the receiving end of the hurt again?

Then again, we indulge in self-pity. Wallowing in past pains, unable to turn the filament-like page of your his-story. "Ive been hurt" cries may render some allowance to be given for screwed emotions and thoughts. Yet, how many times have we hurt others with what we say, do, or even think? (as thinking, I believe, ultimately leads to action) Knowingly or unknowingly, the people who mean so much to us, only get their desired place in our hearts after a catalysed series of misunderstandings and hurt. Then the cycle regurgitates itself.

In haphazard conclusion, this young and sheltered undeveloped thinker believes that the world on the brink of hurt-induced volcanic erruption. Remedy knocks on the door, willing to dine with thee, yet more often than not, we reject His invitation to be free.

Revelation 3:19-22
"Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent.
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.
To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on His throne.
He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches."

moving

different people take to changes differently. i for one, love changes in the rush, yet minimum, taking too long to adapt to one. i guess it's all how you want it to be. if you wanna have fun, you've gotta be fun and not expect someone to be that for you. along those lines.

just came back from ocf clayton. the worship was awesome..then we broke up into cells. throughout the entire proceedings thereafter, i was just thinking about ocf parkville, entertaining thoughts such as "this person reminds me of so-and-so" "if only so-and-so-and-so were here" it's time to move on.

alot of times we dont wanna shift out because we're too comfortable. i spent last year adjusting to a new system, new school, new church, new youth group, a whole new world of friends. and then suddenly ive to move out of all that.

time and time again, i find myself asking God, what am i doing here? why me? im not in the school, course, or even youth group of my first choice. is there something here that is better? is there a bigger plan? deep in my heart, i know the answer is yes.

in ways God reveals His masterplan, our puny minds cannot fanthom.

always look on the bright side of life..dum dum. :) God has provided a job for me! tutoring a year 11 aussie girl math methods. 2 hours a wk, $20/hr. not bad eh. praise God..i was praying specifically for a job with good pay and less commitment:) He always provides.

and angels like ben (formally from parkville and now at clayton too) make the days a tad sweeter. where else can you get nice (i mean nice) pasta specially cooked and served to your doorstep? thanks lots ben.

God sends angels in the form of people to encourage us. i know one day i'll be back here rambling about how im enjoying myself in clayton. i know, i trust. :) God bless youuuu!

School!!
haha okay..i can only submit a few pictures at the time..not sure why. but hey! school's just started..:)

it's not bad..but somehow it feels quite heavy. once you slack, it's hard to catch up. who said uni was honeymoon. who who who?? haha..oh well. i like my law teacher! name's martine. she reminds me of mary poppins! haha..she's strict in a nice respectable way. guess how i got her! by asking nik's sis who she'd recommend.

me: so which lecturer should i pick?
nik's sis: oh! pick martine!
me: oh, why? is she good!
nik's sis: *gasps* cos she dresses nicely!
me: ?!?!?! (cocks head)

haha but anyway. i wanna be like her if i become a lawyer. :) as for the rest of the units..bio's still nice, most stuff due to cramming in hc though results weren't achieved haha..chem- really have to mug..spent my friday and sat in the lib first wk of school okay! they're teaching the physics behind chem, quantum etc. hc stuff again, but still -_- for stats, it's like fmath that i took in year12. trying to switch my lecturer. current one's floating in air. haha.

went for ocf clayton! :) haha we had this toothpick fight thing. hold the toothpick between ur third and thumb, and start fighting! haha i was the champ! haha so funny. :) but they're really quite nice..makes me miss parkville alot..but that's alright. we move on:)

the new Casey church is up! :) the first service was pretty good..:) it was quite tiring serving in 2 churches..knocked out when i hit the bed. i think it's great taking your youth and giving it to God, knowing that the time is well spent and invested in His hands. :)

Einstein was poor student whose principal said, "He will never make a success out of anything." Contrary to myth, he was not a poor, but an independent learner. Genius? Aren't we all.

"Everything i need, is You"

im on top of the world! climbing half (okay a quarter) a mountain in kch!
mummy and me! with resemblence of a cross at the back..
with granny(popo) and my mum's sis-in-law (kimkim! aka mother cat)
The four cousins :) jie jas jon me!
Isnt he the most adorable boy?
then the little boy fell in love with baby and it's mistress
















in my granny's orchid "garden" in kch!