I really thank God for being faithful:) He's helped me through 2 of my papers in recalling what I studied through plain cramming. Thank You Lord, You're always there for me!

Next time, I shall not rely on my thriving on adrenaline rushes to get work done anymore. It's quite nerve-wrecking to burn the midnight oil! haha. But at least I've been trying different methods of mugging, seeing which ones suit me the most:) I think visual images and explaining concepts to myself works best:)

Anyway! I met Josh today, my sem 1 friend. haha. okay, I actually only have 2 sem 1 coursemates whom I hung out with. (so there's very little confusion as to who my sem 1 friends are haha) Realised that I kinda miss hanging out with him and Jenny, even though I still think we're on abiiitt different wavelengths. You know, chin-aussies and me. yeah. But anyhow, he reminds me of d.guo, quite the achiever as well. Jasin! He played with Agassi and Sharapova before! haha how cool. not distracting meh? haha.

Okay bye I'm super hungry. Going home to eat dad's cooking:) Daddy's been bringing over dinner to feed his hungry girls. He's a great cook man, yumyum!..After the exams, I'll go learn new dishes! :)

btw, is my english that bad? my law lecturer vandalised my whole assignment circling all my wrong expressions. how disappointing. haiya, time for me to read more substantial books already @_#

Five Friends Every Woman Should Have By Michelle Burford [oprah.com]

"Friends are the family we choose for ourselves," writer Edna Buchanan once said. I consider the "family" I've gathered, with five kinds of pals I count on for completely different things, among the wisest choices I've made. If you can find even one who embodies any of the characteristics that follow, you can consider yourself fortunate.

1. The Uplifter This woman's favorite word: yes. You could tell her you're trading your six-figure income for a career in offtrack betting, and she'd barely pause before yelping "Go for it!" Don't you need someone who looks past the love handles to notice the extraordinarily gorgeous you?

2. The Travel Buddy When the hotel in St. Lucia is a bust, one characteristic becomes all-important: flexibility. This agreeable companion need not be the girl you traded pinkie swears with on the playground; it's enough that she's comfortable with quiet (between gabfests) and is a teensy bit mischievous (as in tequila after midnight).

3. The Truth Teller Intent is what separates the constructive from the abusive. Once you've established that the hard news is spoken in love (not in jealousy or malice), you'd be smart to seek out this woman's perspective.

4. The Girl Who Just Wants to Have Fun One Saturday a pal and I, and yes, we're both over age 12, pored over every glitter lip gloss in a drugstore aisle for an entire 45 minutes. Forget the crisis download (for that, see the Uplifter); this partnership is about spontaneous good times.

5. The Unlikely Friend "Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive," AnaNin wrote. My friends, some twice my age, others half, some rich, others homeless, some black like me, others Korean, Mexican, Caucasian, have added richness to my life that only variety can bring.

we're different personalities to the different people in our lives, aren't we? :)

so darlings, which friend are you? >.<

hy: i miss ang! and ive stopped watching grey's you know..takes up too much brain cells. ive switched to survivor and csi and bones (sth like csi)..haha HOW :)

shuqing: haha jiayou dear! :) cannot make that collage lar, i look bad in most of the photos you sent me..that was the only decent one i could find of 2 of us!! :) hahaha..cya on sunday and God'll see us thru yet another exam!:)

ern: haha..i think this is the first emo speech you've ever written for me. haha i should make you emo more often hahaha. yar lar, i still rem what you said to one of your passer-by friends: best friends share everything. !?! do you rem that? hahaha..super funny lar you. thank you for being a friend too ern:) you've grown alot haha:)

debo: haha i know what? anw i havent drank vitagen/yakult for one whole year..it's smaller and more ex here haha..how's sam yuan? still the same? haha hope he's doing well:) ok i'll ask about dec okay:)

shuk: happy birthday ZY! :) silly shuk-in-love. haha. you know i dreamt of you zy and frank yest..we were going to watch a movie, waiting for jia to come. haha..gosh! haha eh im sure you've had wonderful memories here in melb too- so you're living in the good times too rem? :) haha everyone's getting emo nowadays hehe :)
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yet another sem is coming to an end. this year has been a really busy one, but yet time flies huh :)

it doesn't matter where you want to be, it's where God wants you to be. so I will do my best:)

all the best everyone!

"we were strangers starting out on a journey, never dreaming what we'd have to go through. noone told me i was going to find you, unexpected what you did to my heart.

and life is a road that i wanna keep going,
love is river i wanna keep flowing
i'll be there when the world stops turning,
i'll be there when the storm is through.

in the end i wanna be standing, at the beginning with you:) "

iloveyou jia. thank you for being my subway! putting up with my rubbish and nonsense when we were 17 haha. (i counted wrong, our friendship is about 3 years now) for being there during the constant weaknesses and complaining. and i'd do the same for you, cos you're worth it:) nownow, what's going to tear us apart? hahaha >.<

and all of you dear to my heart. for all the things we've been through together. thank you for being there:)

my princess* :)

i miss singapore. i miss a whole lot of people. i wonder if things have change- they probably have. change, is one of the hardest things to deal with.

owell i talked to jia for 1.5hours on sunday! whoopee:) if only i don't have to pay for silences on the phone, because our conversations aren't afraid of them. which is what makes the best convos, don't you think?

the feeling of being there without having to say a word.

i like the honesty in our conversations. the honest thoughts about others, the honest constructive criticisms of ourselves, and of course the honest thoughts about each other which help us to realise ourselves more.

i remember sitting on the bridge near fullerton with ern, one of our few chats alone over the river where we waved to unsuspecting tourists. the lazy days lying on deb's bed and sofa, fending scrappy away while eating deb's yummy food. joking about nick's parent's bed, drinking rose syrup and vitagen at his house. jia and my dates mostly in orchard, eating kfc cheese fries and subway. going to Escape to literally escape with edwin, riding bikes at east coast park. trying to get lame jokes from an old uncle at east coast with hy and nick. reading at borders alone whenever im down. eating at nydc with arie and shin han. softball competitions at padang, the muddy shoes, the jerseys and the lovely teammates. the scgs outings to malacca and fort siloso, the smell of the badminton courts, the bubble tea jeanette's mum used to make for us. the megalife camps, the war and survivor concerts i brought my sc friends to. the j1 bible studies at bk with dora, hy nina jan and sometimes ern haha. hearing ern and jo perform at the esplanade. happily playing at liwen's house together. all the birthday celebrations with my sc gang, at addy, anna and ally's houses. woah, these date back years ago. family brekky at bishan for roti prata, and of course our beloved braddell rd chicken rice. spending time with shun n jia at last yr's tm412 camp. hwachong mass dances, the crushes, the ponning, the fun and laughter. the 1st 3 months class of 04s76. tearing at venetia with cel before 0'level results :). at alicia's house to celebrate shuk's bday. ponning assembly with edwin for serene centre macs. my farewell kap macs party with the hc gang. swimming with deb at my house, and going to wildwildwet with her. dinner with pak ken and wayne for christmas at taka. dinner with poi at big o, lunch with her and cherie at sakai sushi. lunch with sau at nus laughing at my blisters. lastly, talks of reality near the merlion and making wishes at every fountain i possibly could.

and there's yet to be a melbourne version haha. can't remember alot of things actually, or maybe im just trying to filter them all. anyhow, random random! :) i miss singapore, that's all :)

and my very one wish? one day, i shall go to our NDP.

debo: australia interstate travel? south korea? singapore? cambodia? haha. maybe you should just come to melbourne and we can chill together hahahaha. lotsa nice scenery in victoria..and i'll be able to drive by myself at the end of jan.. :) lovelove.

jasin: hahaha thanks for the post on ur blog dear:) it was really sweet:) the only thing was that eunice forgot my name and im still sore about that..:) take care okay? and what do you mean by u'll end up in aust sooner or later? you're coming? :) :)

jia: hahaha:) now who's the one whining huh. stop being emo.. but i can handle it hahaha:) -grins:) go get a calling card and call me!!!!

shuk: eh since when you call me wanyi huh..hahaha. you do? i thought everyone hated me doing that hahaha. mug hard dear and i shall see you very soon after my exams:)

hy: take care okay..what happened specifically? you fell down drooling at cute lecturers is it..;) hahaha. be careful okay:)

ernest: haha. maybe she doesnt get the humour lar..we've to take 1 hour to explain what the joke is about anyway.. -_-
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Yesterday the 1045 worship team came over to help out at Casey:) yay. Glad to have them (actually more glad to take a break) hehe. But glad to see them again:)

God moved in His own way. for some it was powerful, for me, He moved in a silent and still way. The way you know that He's speaking to you directly. The way that He touches you personally and you can't explain it.

and I've just realised a fact of life.

You do things because you have to do it. Maybe you don't want to do it, maybe you can't stand doing it, but it's part of life's lessons. Victory is the only way of survival.

Everyone has their own problems and many lack to see those of others. Each thinks their problems are the biggest. A huge problem for someone may be just a ripple in a sea of darkness for another.

For instance, I haven't grasped the privilege of studying overseas. Some want to go overseas but they aren't able to. Those overseas yearn to be home. Some doing their course can't find the purpose in doing so. Those wanting to do that course have their dreams dashed.

In the end, it's my choice. I can't choose my circumstances but I choose not to be under my circumstances. I can't choose what I feel but I can choose to be more than a conqueror. I can choose to do my best. I can choose (a lesson from the devil wears prada) to be true to myself. Maybe I'd rather not be in my shoes, but guess what, I love to be me. The me who loves God, who believes in Him and who honours Him.

and another thing I've learnt.

Most of the time, life is about yourself. Celebrating your life in a balanced fashion is important. Perhaps along the way I've offended others. But I've tried my very best to make peace with everyone past and present. At the end of the day, I have to protect myself by choosing friends who enable me to soar higher. Friends who do not gossip behind my back or criticise me during misunderstandings. Ultimately, people can judge for themselves who they choose to believe. Forgiveness is obedience. Over and out, the next step is making sure that dubious events in my life do not reoccur.

Truth be told, I'd rather be a doorkeeper at my Father's house than dwell in the tents of the wicked :)

so long:)

ive been writing my own diary now, in the book nat gave me for my birthday 3 years ago:)

cell group yesterday was good! :) honest sharing, praying against the gates of hell for one of our friends. i must pray more. i must guard myself with the armour of God more. i must rely on our sword, the Word, more.

:)

mimi: love you lots!

jie: get well soon or i shall pry your throat out. jaychoujaychou. i only listen to a few types of songs, his not included. ;) love!

deb: how are you dear? how's your tooth? i shall talk to you abt coming over in jan soon okay? hope everything's fine:) love you lots. lots. lots. (im eating some korean rice cakes now..quite nice!)

hy: hello ang!! are you doing okay? may God grant you the joy that overcomes pain and hurt..and may He grant you the strength to face each day with new boldness:) -bighugs.

rawr: haha sg idol..haha we're having aust idol here too:) they're not bad, seriously!! but the last aust idol..the dark girl was much better, but they voted for the aussie girl=( haha. oh well, the runner up usually sells more albums:)

jia: haha hip and cool girl with skype..how's everything? i will call you soon..using company funds cos we pay too much school fees haha. skype can be quite slow, and my webcam's not working=( haha bighugsforjaja!:)

cherie: cherie chan! how's everything? what course are you doing now? haha hope everything's fine for you k!:) as ive said, ure getting prettier everyday!:) -pointsandlaughsatyou haha:) i miss crappying with you and poi man!:)

shuk: haha yeah..cos you guys had 2 wks hols..haha if im nice, maybe i'll be your maid for one day! haha i dont mind actually;) (pay me $12/hr hehehe) hope everything's fine dear!:)

all I want is to lead Your people into worship, because that is to me, of a high honour.

To love You from the inside out, although everything seems dead from within.

My purpose remains, there is no higher honour, no greater prestige. Than to serve the One and Only true God.

Take take take it all. I search for truth, and all I found is You, my God, I only ever give my all.

Consume me from the inside out.

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