the four of us, 2005 and i love hy too- the 2 dark girls, 2004


the sc lovelies in 2002. the hc wonderful pp and nick, farewell 2005

for all of you then, there, now

suddenly you see the importance of those you didnt treasure as much as they deserved to be.

casting all responsibility aside in a phrase of "we move on", how disrrespectful yet true to a certain muddled extent. words- all fluff and fairy.

live life to the fullest each day then. :)

i can see the rainbow, so sing along with me

a letter

dear mich,

hey girl. i really miss you too. while im really extremely proud of how you're using the gifts and talents God has given you, i know it's hard coming all the way from the city, playing every week.

hey dear, God has big plans. i know we keep reminding ourselves time and time again, but He does. somehow i get this whole tired syndrome of how 1045 used to be, cos Casey's still a small church. but you noe what, it's an awesome privilege to serve God in a place where there are almost zilch persecutions. remember the people in thailand? remember their heart for God? :)

girl, im coming this sunday and i'll be seated first row to support you okay?and im so excited ure coming to our big launch. it means a whole lot to me and the rest of the team as well. :)

and when our biggie 5 is gone, we'll all be either alongside you cheering you on, or in it with you to hold the fort together. dont let anyone look down on you cos you're considerably younger (haha) but God has His annointing on you, and whatever you play or sing is gonna be music to His ears.:)

i love you dear girl. and God is so proud of you. :)

huggies and prayers, char.

dear cherie chan, the reason why i didnt ask you to do the nonsensical exercise below is cos i think i already noe most of your answers.

how bout "i have an ardent supporter who is a round sky" and "i miss booking eng wan yi for her nails and non-existent socks"

i miss you cherie chan a.k.a ex-partner haha!!:) *whistles

Rules:1. Bold the following words that are true about you (italics: sometimes true).
2. GREEN! the things you wish were true.
3. add one thing true about you
4. and then tag onetwothreefourFIVE more people.

I miss somebody right now (my mum n my wonderful friends).
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someones' bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast/unclear.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have alot of friends.
I am currently single!
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates and crowns!
I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons.
I can't ride a bicycle.
I think i'm the only person crazy enough to do this at 6 in the morning without any sleep for the night.
I feel crazy.
I love tomatoes!!
I like peanut butter on bananas.
Been told "You're on fire!"
I'm a netballer.
I believe in Serendipity.
I think the word 'RASPBERRY' is sexaaay!
I love to look at people's teeth.
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute.
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing.
I am a PRO.
I love listening to gossip.
I really should be studying for exams now.
I totally love cheezels.
I can eat as much as a guy.

mine: i want to own my own ice-cream shop!

And of course to pass the buck:
jie jie!
wayne the complain king
yon, the secret blogger;)
mau ren
shin han
ang ang
all the hc gang girls:)

a Princess

all girls yearn to be princesses, dont we? yet most of us havent learnt to walk like one although we ARE one and our destiny is to BE one. :)

princesses walk the talk. people see their beauty and praise their God in heaven. they lead their fellow princes toward God, and not astray. princesses do not care how the world sees them, but how their King smiles adoringly at them.

Princesses wait, trusting in God and in His promises.

princesses teach others how to be princesses too! princesses are confident of who they are in God, yet are willing to admit their hurt in front of Him who made them. princesses allow themselves to be set free so that they can lead abundant lives according to their great destiny. :)

next time jia (i heart you) asks, "what do you want to whine about my dear?"
the princess will answer, "i shall whine no more for i know God's promises are yes and amen!"

haha and she shall wear her heart ring until that day when God and His angels rejoice with her in heaven.

CAMP!!!

You know what. it was the BEST camp ive ever ever been to. Praise God!!:)) When we go to a camp expecting more than we ever did before, God moves. ive got so many things to share about :)

firstly, i met up with all the parkville people again!!! :) and it's really encouraging to see them grow, and just concerned about how ive been doing. it's this whole big picture where this big family can just press on together no matter where we are. and yes, shin han went too!! :)

secondly, i had a great group. was co-leading with daniel frm parkville and john from melb uni..so was just being a sister to the girlies..:) we had korean, chinese, indonesian girls..and it was great just cheering them on in their faith, listening to how they believe in God..God is the Father of all languages, amen? at the end of it, we had korean, beijing chinese and canto prayers. how awesome! it was great complimenting on the part of the leaders, cos john's the "word" guy, daniel's the crazy fun guy, and im the girl's girl. hahaha so it was fun.:)

ive realised that encouragements are the best thing ever. a show of care, love, a glimpse of how our Father is that to the extreme. little things like mei sun's, kafaii's and peggen's notes, talking and sharing to daniel, a quick chat with jason.

daniel just sat me down and we just went straight to the point about bgr. it was a really encouraging (cant think of a better word) talk because we only joked around in parkville..and it was great hearing from a brother's point of view. and he encouraged me about waiting for the right one..we agreed that is the hardest stage..but it's wonderful to see how everyone, brothers and sisters, are all in the same boat. and in turn, i encouraged him about his ministry and stepping up. im glad God put us together to serve. wow. :)

the highlight of the camp for me was when we broke up into guy and girl workshops. the girls had an inspiring gp-ex-ocfer come to talk to us. sarah was amazing. talking about luke 13-10, a crippled woman positioning herself, being vunerable to God, and letting God heal her. at the end of it, almost everyone went up for the altar call, and we just bonded in tears and in the joy of freedom. Christ sets people free, amen? the Holy Spirit just moved so mightily.:)

and praise God for my bunk! most of the girls had to share like..say 60 people to 6 showers? which werent the best. and i had a room with 5others, sharing a shower/toilet. which is really impt for my personal comfort. hahahaha. and i just made new frens and got closer to melissa from parkville. at the end of it, she just told me, "im glad God put us in the same bunk." you noe what. God, You're awesome. :)

but hey hey, you noe, we go to camp and get refreshed, the hardest part is coming back to the real world. but let's stand strong, amen?:) ive learnt that being a blessing to my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ can be the best job God has commissioned me to do. looking at them in the way God does, you just see it from a different loving perspective. :)

my ocf cell group rocks too. we had hau wei, june and eileen in the camp committee..and mau ren and i being leaders, and justin being a great support in the kitchen. i think we drew closer encouraging each other too..since most of them were helping in the kitchen. :)

still so much to learn. will put up pictures soon!!! :) ta and happy easter hols!!

driving up to portsea with sau, marianne lim and ben tmr morning:)

EASTER CAMP!!!!!!

dear Lord, i pray that it'll be much better than last yr's cos i have You in my heart. :) pls send angels to look after me and feed me well. :) may this be the first camp i actually enjoy!!

"But the Voice of Truth, tells me a different story. And the Voice of Truth, says do not be afraid. And the Voice of Truth, says this is for MY glory..."

happy Easter everyone, the Lord Jesus came to die on the Cross for you and me 2006 years ago. and He rose again.

easter hoping

i cant wait for easter. im in hargrave lib now..stoning away? haha..waiting for time to pass. today was a pms-ing day, where everyone gets on your nerves and you just wish that you, in your mighty power suit could fire all the incompetent wannabe scientists around you. or maybe chide them for their lack of efficiency.

haha. so random. just had a bio lab and waiting for my chem lab, which hopefully explains the explicit randomness.

this week has been much bearable with surprise emails from shun!! whom i havent kept in contact with for so long..and shuk, the mia busy girl whom i havent met. and alicia, who just came back from hawaii (my honeymoon dream) and got into med in king's college!! so proud of her:) and jia, whom i just dreamt of being with in tm12 (horrors of all horrors for all the 'baby sharks' out there). nightmare i think that was haha. and bill, my ex-taylors math classmate (see, i have math frens erhumph) who writes random stuff about his life, so that's really good.:) and poi, the accusing girl who pretends i dont reply her mails hahahaha. just kidding. law's good dear, go for it. i'll forgive u if you go to melb, dont worry:)

yes and all those who havent replied like my junior yanyan!! and my senior wei li and andy. haha.

i cant wait for camp.
i cant wait for break.
i cant wait to get rid of chemistry.
i want a lindt choc bunny. which i almost bought for my mortal for camp, but chose an egg instead haha.

hahaha. oh i just cut my hair! okay lar, just trimmed it. haha. the korean girl, she curled my hair..and i looked like a poodle gone wrong haha. fortunately it wasnt permanent (she did it for fun)...i was hoping i didnt bump into anyone after the haircut..haha..now i really appreciate my nice straight hair. haha. im trying to grow it long then do it like trudy's hahaha..:)

cherie: hi hi hi yu wen!!!! hahaha..hope everything's fine with your coach too? and hope you're still the cheerful wonderful partner i know:) hugs. :)

mimi: haha yes im a wonderful good girl now. haha learning bit by bit lar..:) take care lots mimi and God bless you! hugs. :) i love you!! i pray for you every nite (or when i cant sleep haha)

:)

haha

haha

hahaha i went for citylife today!! with some ocfers like daryl and mau ren haha..:) was fun! brian houston was there..so it was like another hillsongs. haha. yeah really exciting. the message was on living in the grace of God..steppin out into the strength and specific gifts He has endowed upon each of us. :) i believe one day our berwick and 1045 ecc will be more awesome than citylife. takes a great step of faith to believe that, but we serve a God of miracles:)

just heard the song "what the world will never take" hahaha..reminds me of parkville dance team! haha..yay im going for ocf easter camp..so i'll see all of them:) God's been good..providing frens around..also from ocf..yeah. i love the worship in clayton..i think those guys are really annointed. very encouraging:)

had a short but succint talk with my bf deb chen yest! haha..i kept smiling for her. -grins. im really glad God has provided great awesome girls like deb, jia and alicia..to pray for each other and wait together. im really excited but i can wait, you noe? :) for the best. trusting God each step..it's wonderful how you can just step back instead of rushing through..talking to your Best Friend about your feelings and desires. He cares. He really does. :) i never knew what admiration from a distance meant. im still learning and it's just a great new perspective. :)

"take me deeper in love"

"Who am I" -Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind (refer to James 4:13)

Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Many times in the busy nature of our lives, we often forget who God is and how He wants us to live. Today, I learnt that it's because of who God is that I am simply humble me. and everything else fades in a distance.

schooling

im at the errr. matterson library now..(or is it maddison?? who noes hor, maybe it's medicine also..) it's a big "common" library and shockingly enough, my first time here. (yes mau ren, school is very big haha) haha. waiting for ben to finish his work. and it's 10.10 pm so i should be slpg soon. according to emaelyn's (my cell member) advice on dark circles, we should slp from 12pm-3am because of blahblah -i was zoning off- . haha.

anyway, ben and i have been studying since..hopefully 430? headache. havent showered. yeah i look as ugly as i can get now. haha. cos we've got lotsa lotsa assignments to do, so sleeping and eating aren't priorities anymore. save for snickers which always save me. :) my only break was tuition- which was fun as usually (of course, when ure earning $$ haha)

so yeah.this library closes at 11pm..and there're still many many people here (note the 1015pm-semantics) i was telling ben, i thought we were the only hardworking ones..turns out that if i wanna be like my dear mich who got on the dean's list (so super proud of her), ive to come here everyday. haha.

anyway..life has been better now that i know more people haha. in my lectures and stuff. haha plus the fact that ive been bumping into mau mau (hahaha) almost everyday. just talked to him for over an hour in the lib that day..yeah i noe i loathe those who make the slightest noise in the lib..but.. -sheepish

*eh mau ren, just read ur blog. eh i saw nick's family members walking from hargrave that day! haha..but i didnt say hi. haha..indeed, school is that big huh.

anw. my housemate eugene and my sis and i went to a nearby soccerfield to play ultimate frisbee. eugene taught us how to throw it properly since he's in official training. haha. looking at the field, i feel like taking up soccer..haha. tried to do some cartwheels when no-one was spying..haha.

i'll probably be joining the casual gym in monash. includes aerobics and spinning. see how that goes..it'll be a great incentive to work out now that it's real colder now..haha..

okay im quite happy with myself for finishing bio prac..and almost done with law report..(soon soon) and then tmr ive got 2 pracs..so gotta do another two practical reports, plus stats assignment..plus bio essay..plus..plus..plus..

zzzzzzzzzzzz

happy

im half asleep trying to stay awake till 12 AM. hahaha..cos my beloved happening cell is going to steve's house to sing him his bday song (in 12C, may i coldly add). haha. i love my cell:) they're fun!!

haha yeah, we just had supper after ocf yest at glen. celebrated evil rong mo mo's bday with eileen's home made lemon cheesecake. (super duper nice) getting closer to some of them bit by bit, due to cosy and carb-y supper haha. :)

had an ocf bbq today! went to the halls to help to cook for almost 3hours haha. all i did was pain my dainty fingers with the ardous task of peeling garlic. and err, mashing not-so-tasty-after-all potatoes. haha. humph. anw, after watching ben the iron chef cook, i think it's impt for guys to cook good food too. maybe roles have been reversed in this century huh haha.

anw! anne just called me from msia!!! hahaha. i miss her! just talking to her and sharing about stuff..random phone calls of stress, tiredness and complaints..:) im sure she'll cope just fine, my future doctor/ researcher. haha. :) big hug hug hugs haha.

went to the city on wed to attend a law lecture at monash law chambers given by Mr. Lex Lasry QC, previously on the defence counsel for Nguyen. it was an eye-opener in some ways. topic was, the death penalty, are we really against it (in Aust)? and he did mention a country, of course. sudden realisation that ive been living in a carefully construed bubble doesnt do much for your spirit of patriotism. democracy? i thought they never lied.

it was an inspiring talk, hearing a Monash alumni with impressive credentials speak with such clarity. apart from the brainwashing of Grisham (count's now 2), lawyers arent all money-sucking sly loudspeakers. They have the ability to change your world. Dont all professions hinge on the Law? :)

met yon after the talk too haha. just catching up and sharing:) be happy and disciplined!! (note to self too haha)

yeah! so im back pouring over peggen's and mau ren's law notes, the latter being med law notes to be precise haha. going for 10.45 ecc church tmr! helping out kid's church haha. how how how fun, i hope! :) kids, what a controversial topic haha.

okay. im going to put on my winter gear, digest meat pie and milk, and wait to sing in a shivering voice haha.

:)! oh yar! i'll try to set up a tagboard soon okay..stop complaining lar, the three of you!:) cannot write in comments book meh? -glares haha. :)