mich: haha really? okay, tell me more when you get back. how's everything? big news, daigor is attached!! 2 weeks ago, and Yulie just spilled the beans to basically the whole of Casey yest. haha it's to Vicky, you know her? haha. and heard tt a certain M who drives the flashy two seaters is quite sad about it..haha. get it, get it? :) anw, RMIT doesnt have my course lar!! haha..it's okay, I'll be taking my P's soon (hopefully march, I'll book it this week, L's have become boring alr) , so we can steal daddy's car and run together okay? :)

nat: natty!! really? that's really sweet..hope it has encouraged you in some way;) and i know i owe you mail, wait for me okay! hahaha. love you lil' sis:)

lyn: haha really! that's great:) dad and I called home on Charmian's birthday but she was out the whole day! so I've yet to speak to her haha..hope you're enjoying yourself! :)

shuk and jasin: haha you know what! they called to ask me to do the ushering, then I told them I had another job so couldn't make it..but in the end, my other job was only a few hours on one day!! -_- so sad huh. anw, did you guys watch the men's finals last night!! I think it was really cool! haha..so sad for Roddick..anw, how are you both? shuk, when are you comin back? jasin, havent heard from you for so long, how's everything? :)

jia: fcy! you bad girl, I thought you got kidnapped or sth hehehe. no im not going alr=( haaaii. haha well, if you call, I'll know it's you saying hello to no one hahaha. okay, I'll call soon hahaha. i miss you lar=)

debo: haha thanks for your sms, i thought it was moley, not molly? is your sylvester cleaner than mine? haha. yar, finally updated. oh i went shopping for a while yest, bought a $30 dress! it's nice, printed flower pattern. I think i should stop buying flowery stuff, but I think you'll like it too. it's a tube dress with straight cut, just above the knee.. and i went back to Diva to get some cheap jewellery:) did you happen to get the blue/green dove/bird earrings? cant rem, cos they had a matching pair in a diff colour, so I thought of you when i saw that haha..

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Dad and I went to Jell's Park for the Australia Day bbq organised by our church..not many of my friends were there, so decided to leave for kayaking down the Yarra. Haven't done that in a long time with Daddy. I still remember we canoed in Bintan when the yellow flag went up and my dad said it was okay because it wasn't the red flag yet. haha, I was still in primary school then. So I guess when you grow up with such a dad, nothing much gives you exhilaration other than skydiving or sth.

Anw, I was thinking of Huiying when kayaking, cos she always talks about her K1 or K2..haha. We kayaked till the bats sanctuary, where there were easily over a thousand bats hanging from the trees in broad daylight. That was cool:)

Had dinner that day with some of the ocfers, jon daniel david chen hua and jeremy. watched saving private ryan, which was quite okay. :)

Met up with Arie and Angela on Sat!! finally. The 2 med students were talking about corpses over lunch, I was just busily eating my laksa. haha. It was fun catching up with them. Angela and I shopped while Arie went to get computer games. Then Yan Zhi and Arie's sis Diana joined us for dinner..brought them to eat Greek. Fun lar! :)

HAPPY 21st JIE JIE

I LOVE YOU LOTS!

I MISS YOU LOTS!

You're the best sister I have! :) heehee.

NAH, I'm glad I have you cos you're fun! :)

Enjoy your hols okay and come back soon! LOVE LOVE- :)

xoxo sugarbunny

fellow char: haha hello! I like your post:) hehe..do take care okay and big hugs!! :)) I still have the friendship bands you made me last time (bet you've forgotten) there's a pink one! :)

poi: haha how was london!! aiya, I wanna visit you! super cold lar, how you tahan haha. did you go to paris too? anw, okay I shall write you an email..err..whenever I feel like okay hahaha. loveee! :)

mich: keep quiet!! hahaha..aiya, not say I didn't wanna go to melb uni right..they don't want me what. haha, but yeah, I'm not regretting anymore haha. YAR LOR. Deb, come to RMIT hahaha. I brought her to see the building (strange designs) and she loved it!! :) You ask Quack to come to Swinburne or sth first lar!! heehee. So I can finally have a proper conversation with him when he's not sleepy haha.

mel: MEL!!! how are you dear? haha have you been going to Riverlife? have you met my sis? haha we miss you here!! =( take care okay, enjoy the hols and visit melb soon=))) hugs. :)

alicia: hey dear!! how are your hols? hahaha I owe you mail right. hehehe. but anw, you enjoy the rest of your hols too okay, you deserve a good break!! :)

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Heehee yesterday with the kids was fun. haha, and Pak Ken keeps telling Claire to speak proper English. Maybe she mixes too much with me hahaha. Anw, popped over to Sera and Gabby's place to eat their mummy's Mee Siam and Drumstick ice cream. Watched the Pacifer with them too haha. The both of them remind me of my sis and I. Sera's sensible and mature, Gabby's playful and loves to design clothes and do make-up for Claire haha. Interesting:)

Anw, Fiona and I should be pontang-ing our Casey bbq for Kelv and the Men's Health gang at Laksa King this friday. Miss hanging out with them haha. :)

Okay, shall upload some pics soon or something -- :)

I'm talking to Charm from Riverlife now, and I miss her!

I remember her holding both my hands and praying before I went up to dance, I think twice over. I really appreciated that, because I just felt that someone believed in me and that it's nice to have people support you in your passion.

All the kids from our church are coming to Pak Ken's house (where I will be staying for 3 nights running) to learn 'This is how we overcome'. How cool is that. Still remember the steps after 6 years haha.

It's a joy for me to see kids dancing for God. Dancing at 12 years of age encouraged and built up the servanthood in me. My first step to ministry. What other better way is there than to serve God using your entire being? It's a joy, really.

I think some things are getting hard here. Challenges, new arena. Out of the comfort zone. But there are many things to come which are going to be harder.

Talking to Nik online now. Gosh, I miss her. :)

And I've just realised something, it's hard for me to stay at the same place (or any organisation) for too long. -_-

I did try something new today, something I never thought possible. In the end, the people who came up and said it was good, don't matter. It's what You think, and it always will be.

nat: haha I didn't want to tell you who I was, but you guessed right:) please take care too dear, can't believe you're growing up so fast hahaha. :) love:)

lyn: aunt lyn! :) well at least you guys got a break! sometimes nice and quiet's better, so you can recharge and relax:) haha that's great you're travelling around! it must be good huh, having so many options to choose from in Europe and all. Melbourne's getting a bit too boring already haha, running out of places that impress. All the same, have fun okay and take care!! :)

mich: haha please meet up with whineywayne and stellathestar soon! haha but owell, we'll have amichnother 6 months of all of us soon anw. yeah i hope she (that's you deb, say hi to my friend mich here) comes to melb too! she was thinking of rmit, so see how that goes:) eh you know, she came here and spoiled market. after she left, my dad was like, you must learn to be more like deb, whine and complain less. -_- bad bad bestie. haha.

poi: haha happy new year!! hahaha where are you now? canada? are you going to visit any place new? drop an email okay, i think you owe me..err i think. :) are you back in sg? :) enjoy urself okay!! :)

shuk: haha hello -kicks you- haha. yeah im still alive, kicking but a tad bored. hahaha, going to an ocf meeting tonight, there's still over 20 pp left behind! hehehe. oh well, are you having fun in sg? coming back to melb isn't all that bad okay dear? i know transition can be hard, and is hard all the time, but that's where you learn and grow. big hugs for my big girl:)

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-takes broom from mich and sweeps cobwebs* :)

Sorry I haven't been updating this summer hols. Mum came for a month, which was fantastic:) Miss her already. At least Jie's with her now. :)

Then Deb the bestie came for 2 weeks, and I miss her now too. haha. She keeps me sane, that's what I always say. I think it's God's divine appointment how we're best friends, and still are after -counts- end of Sec1, which is about 6 years and counting now. We'd never have met outside church or dance ministry. I know people drift apart and sometimes we haven't always been there. But this holiday really polished the rough edges due to the inevitable lack of communication ever since I came here.

I learnt alot of things from her and with her around. Ever since living alone for one year, it has been hard adapting back to living with fellow beings, other than spiders and their silky threads. I learnt to slow down (except that she walks reaaaally fast and claims it's normal) when it comes to people. Accepting people the way they are and learning to adapt to suit their needs. It's so easy to hide in my shell and try to be oblivious of my surroundings.

Yeah, and we spent a couple of nights talking. Talking about our families, talking about our future, talking about ourselves. Not so much about the past, although I did give her a few items to run away with. 19 going on 20, what a beautiful age. It was great spending time alone with her, sharing what we thought about this and that. I miss that. I miss having a best friend here. I mean sure, I've met fantastic people, but there aren't many whom I can do 5 minute tell-all talk shows with.

Which brings me to the point where I feel sometimes, I'm trying too hard. Trying too hard to be independent and strong by myself.

"I will give you a new heart" says the Lord. A heart that is full of His compassion, a heart that loves her neighbour as herself, and above all, a heart that loves God more than life itself.

It's amazing how God changes hearts. From brokenness to bringing out the champions in you. Recently, I took out an audio cd from the women's conference in Citylife 2006. Listening to Deborah Cobrae and Marilyn Skinner reminded me of what I am here on earth to do. To make a difference. Not just to live up to the challenge, but to be challenged to live.

Protect your godly dream and what God has put on your heart. Go for it:)

mich: COME HERE lar. and yeah you know the Casey camp was awesome!God really broke through for us, and we prayed for the 1045 team- wes jim sweet kelv kenli and yulie etc..im sure they were greatly blessed too:) praise God. come back soon, so many babies coming soon! yeah! i think 07 will be a great and awesome year:)

jasin: haha thanks dear. merry christmas too! what did you do for christmas? haha i went to a few parties here and there haha..had lotsa fun! :) take care dear:)

shuk: yeah i wont..maybe end of 07? see how it goes haha..are you having fun in sg? ive been visiting random places here and it's really hot today..okay lar, 36C haha hot enough to complain right haha.:) loveee

lyn: hi aunt lyn!!! how are you? great to hear from you haha. yeah, we had a great christmas with mum here..went around visiting old friends and all..im sure you guys had fun too!:) would love to visit london some day, maybe not for studies but for the holidays:) God bless the both of you lots!! :)

rawr: haha merry christmas too dear. hope everything's going smoothly yeah:) hope all's settled too:) update okay!

yannn: HELLO haha..happy new year dearie..did you have fun or countdown somewhere? hahaha:)

tomato: hey thanks lots! how's msia? is it nice being home? haha have a great 07 too..im sure God will bless you greatly when you continue to trust in Him:)

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haha it's been a great 2006. praise God, for He's always there.

I learnt alot in 2006. I learnt how to be more dependent on God, to put Him first in my life and to serve Him with the little talents He has given me. Personally, that's a big breakthrough for me. It's been something I've really wanted to see come through since I was 13.

Looking back, God's been training me for now, for today. Perhaps I haven't figured why some things did happen, but that's not important anymore. I'm not fighting against the flow as I used to, I'm not disgruntled with where I am today, and I'm not hurting those around me. I think that's enough reason to be contented with this stage of my life.

It's the stage where I'm yearning for more, asking for more and dreaming for more. But as I search for more, I have to be contented with less. Then as plans come through, I will learn that God was the one who opened the doors to grant me the desires of my heart.

Sincerely, madly, truly. Sometimes I want so much, it's hard to give up. And I won't give up, but press on to the future I do not know of. I'm glad I've met a couple of like-minded godly brothers and sisters along the way. In their own ways, I've been inspired by just listening to their hearts. Their hearts on fire.

2007 seems like a busy year. I don't want to let busyness be a reason for distancing myself from the people who should matter more to me. Or be the reason I sometimes get back into my shell and crawl away. Or hide in my own little virtual world alone. It's easy to do that, but I won't. People have been sowing much into my life, so I would love to do the same for others:)

It's time to rise up and live :)