Monday, May 21, 2007
One thing I love about Stella and Jane's blogs is that they are so real. I know mine isn't meant to be real, in terms of revealing my heart and feelings. It's meant to be an update of the ongoings of my life, mainly for my mum and close friends. But since my mum's here now, I've lost the motivation to blog.So I shall just be more real. There came a time where I just felt numb to everything. The thoughts and feelings of not doing my best, not doing enough. Sometimes people don't understand, most of the times I don't understand myself. But over the years, I've come to realise that it's not even what I think about everything. It's about what my King thinks. What He wants me to do, where He wants me to go. My hands felt heavy during worship in the morning, but I knew that God brought me there to hear something, straight from heaven. And the sermon was titled- Going to places you don't want to go. My first thought was of an immediate place, a place where I've stuggled with God whether or not to go. But then I realised, I'm going not because of anything else, but because God wants me to go. And that's more than enough for me. To be a servant, not a self-proclaimed Martha. Whatever you do in secret, God acknowledges and is pleased. I keep asking, but God isn't a fortune teller. This is what He says, from "His Princess" by Sheri Rose Shepherd:You seek Me for your place in this world, and My answer to you is wherever you are standing. I love to hear you pray to be used by Me. Nothing pleases Me more than when your love flows warm and free. When you're willing, I am ready to strategically place you somewhere to be a blessing. Even the smallest of effort can lift the burden of someone else when you are living by My power. You won't always understand why I send you to do things that no one else will see, but you don't work for others- you work for Me. What you do now will be seen by all on the other side of eternity. So go where I send you today, knowing that I have prepared the way. Love, Your King who is the Way.
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